Friday, March 17, 2006

interruptions are always on my mind. . .

The truth is, everybody wants someone who is passionate about something.

When I was 16, my boyfriend at the time confessed to me that he wanted to become an orthodontist. I thought this was about the hottest thing ever. And not because I feel that strongly about cosmetic denistry, but because it was a goal, a path, it was something he really wanted to do.

Everyone wants to be with someone who has a guiding voice, a reason for their existance. And if the talent isn't there?

It doesn't matter, because at least the ambition is.

Musician, housewive with kids, nurse, a call centre manager, an funeral home director. . .

. . .it doesn't matter.

Just as long as you have some goal, some mark, some target at the end of everything you are doing.

So what the hell is mine?

There has to be a time and a place when I stop telling people that I'm a professional dart player looking for sponsorship. . .

. . .or that I want to start my own record label, or that I want to be a travel writer. . .

. . .or that I'm going to do PR for a non-profit organization, or start a magazine, or make documentaries, or become an international blogging celebrity, or open a restaurant. . .

There has to be a time and a place.

At this point, it isn't even a matter of misdirection or confusion. It's not a dilemma of what I'm going to do with my life.

The truth is, I just don't really know if I care.

But everyone wants to be with someone who is ambitious.

I just want to be happy. I want to be surrounded by words and friends and music.

. . but everyone wants someone who is passionate.


  1. Anonymous9:00 PM

    i quote,
    "I just want to be happy. I want to be surrounded by words and friends and music."

    seems like a pretty fulfilling ambition.......but that's just me.

  2. Anonymous11:08 PM

    Passion isn't about having a goal, it's an emotion you have for some particular reason. And what I know of you Jess, you are a passionate person when it comes to many things. Who cares if you don't have that end goal as long as you had fun while getting to where you were going. That's what counts right?!?!?!?