After a lazy, hot summer spent at Sandy Beach with my boyfriend, I was trying to find the positive aspects of leaving him and my life in Cold Lake behind, again, so that I could start university in Edmonton.
And then it hit me- in Edmonton, I could have girl friends! All summer long, I had been predisposed to breaking down and crying whenever I got drunk. In between gasping drunken sobs, I'd ask the boyfriend, "Why don't other girls like me?"
I enthusiastically began to plan what would be my first ever "girls' night out." I envisioned a group of girls, make up and hair in order, drinking sangeria and letting loose to bouts of giggles while discussing lewd sexual acts. I could hardly contain my excitement for the forthcoming weekend, and it made moving again bearable.
Except no one came.
Mike, feeling sorry for me, jumped on the LRT and showed up with beer (which is better than sangria, anyway). Chloe showed up too, with two girls in tow. Suddenly, my "first girls' night out ever(!)" had turned into Mike, beer, and some borrowed female friends, because I didn't have any of my own.
Needless to say, I was incrediably drunk when the boyfriend picked me up at the bar later that night, and in between drunken sobs I asked him, "Why don't other girls like me?!"
A lot has changed in the past three years.
I'm now living a perpetual girls' night out.* I live with four girls, and go to school almost exclusively with females (right now, I'm sitting in a room of 31 students, 29 of whom are female, 2 of whom are male, and only of 1 of which is a heterosexual male).
And for once, this isn't a rant about my dating or sex life, or lackthereof.** This is the simple, solid fact, that I went from having almost exclusively close male friends, to having only female friends in the matter of three years. And that's just unnatural.
I seriously need more testosterone in my life.
*Disclaimer: I love my female friends, especially my roomates, considering they aren't overtly feminine. I am so grateful for each and every one of them, but seriously. . .this is just getting out of hand. The fact that I suddenly have only female friends stupifies and confuses me throughly.
** This, however, could turn into a rant about how it's nearly impossible to make new male friends in a huge city because one or both parties always has some sort of underlying sexual motivation, or thinks that the other party does. I honestly think I'd have more male friends if I wasn't single, because then there wouldn't be any confusion about my intentions.